Monday, October 20, 2008

What Now?

While I’m Waiting
John Waller

I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience

While I’m waiting
I will serve You
While I’m waiting
I will worship
While I’m waiting
I will not faint
I’ll be running the race
Even while I wait

I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it’s not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait

I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting on You, Lord.
We went to see the movie "Fireproof" this past Saturday and this song was in it. The very concept made me cry as I watched the movie and I thought how I wanted my attitude to be one of worship when trials came. Two minutes before the movie ended I got a phone call that is making me put this song into action in my life. The mother of the little baby boy we thought we were going to welcome into our family has decided to parent him.

So where do we go from here? We don't have answers. Last week was a week of miracles. Getting everything together for a homestudy update can take weeks and ours was completed in three days. This included getting letters from our doctors, a child abuse registry background check (normally takes 2 weeks to get it back), and reference letters from three of our dear friends. We had no idea where the money would come from, but God took care of those details as well. He allowed me to find all the people we needed to work with between TX and CA in one day's time. Today our homestudy visit was completed. We felt like we were supposed to go ahead and finish it out in faith that God did not do all of that for no reason. Our social worker told us she has never had someone submit all the items needed for a homestudy so quickly. And yet here we are waiting to see what His plan is. I think the hardest part of having faith comes in the waiting.

I am reminded of my study of the book of Daniel a couple of years ago. In the story of Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego where they were being thrown into the fiery furnace, they came out without the smell of smoke on them. My study brought out that in our lives, we can come through trials with bitterness or bondage (smoky smell), or we can come through having been refined by the fire. I want this to refine me. 1 Peter 1:7 says: These (trials) have come so that your faith--of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire--may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed. Oh Jesus, please refine me through this waiting time!

Thanks for taking the time to read my really long post. We would appreciate your prayers as we wait to see what the Lord is doing.

3 comments:

Catie said...

you know, I don't know if this applies or not, but some friends of ours recently went through a similar situation where they thought they'd be moving within a week to another province (the one hit by the earthquake), but in a matter of 24 hours, it didn't work out becuase of some paperwork he needed from his home country. They were frustrated, but their lesson in all this was "be prepared, because the next time, I'll be expecting you to go". Maybe the same is true for you... He calls us to be ready. What a miracle that you were ready so quickly, so willing...next time, it will be the right time.

Lauren Christine said...

We'll be praying for you- I know the Lord has a plan in all of this.

ChristaD said...

Hey Sis,

I know that you are going through a hard time, but if I have learned anything over the last year, is that no matter the situation God is using it to make a difference in your life. We will be able to look back one day and see the reasoning, but until that day comes we just have to have faith and trust in him. I am sorry that things didn't work out, but know I am thinking of you and you, matt, and benjamin are all in my thoughts and prayers. I love you!